Wednesday, April 2, 2008

the future's not a fugitive anymore.

calls herself aishwarya. and aishwarya, won me over. cud have driven by her, made it to nowhere, as ignorant of light and being, as of milan kundera. she could have as easily been just another pretty face, irritatinly nameless, and fleetinly memorable as i could have ended up bein just another asshole, inevitably cynical, and comfortably anonymous. only, she was my angel undercover.after a lifetime of nut-crunchin ball games with malice and the mundane, she blessed me.the bitter sweet symphony of a hard fought victory.she blessed me. had our share of lex luthers and darth vaders. of nightmares and northern stars. she took my arm, held on tight, and refused to give in. to give up. everythin took its toll. there was distance. there was darkness. prophecies of imminent death and parables of starcrossed lovers. all we had was us. and flipbooks of a beautiful future. till death do us apart. we believed. past the haze of unrest and infinite space, gazin into each other, only to stare at ourselves starin back. we knew. to hold on was to make happen. and happen we would. she fought for me, as i took the blow, past her scream. shrill.dry.spellin out my name, in fear and breathin. cud afford to smile through the ride to hell and back. for eventually seemed next door, and life, was on hold. pacin all over, for us to arrive. weak and down on our knees, bled off color and courage, chivalry hangin out to the wind, she still held my arm, as we swam ashore. to the other side. finally, we had each other. and that somehow, explained. everythin and then some more. embalmed in her embrace, liplocked, and open-eyed, breathin warmth into each other, we were plain grateful. that it almost left us spent and senile, that it could so easily not have been, and that we managed to gift us with life. maybe someday, it would really sink in. that it took me bein outrageously blessed to be spendin the rest of my life, with my pretty princess. it took us, every bit of us. the fact that three years later is two weeks from now is testimony, that god after all, isn't busy playin dice with a very dead einstein.

9 comments:

the stygian sailor said...

congrats!

Inexplicably said...

Glad I stumbled along ! Want to smile at you guys for no reason at all...

Ziah said...

:-) Ok... congratulations! In spite of the mood, you just survived my saucepan!:) So when do you guys get together finally? and how/ and where? and what plans?? (ok.. now Ill save my breath):):)

love and squalor said...

feels great to know so many people who wish well for us!! salut!! and we'll try that much more harder and stay together till we are both ninety nine. just to ensure we did not let you guys down. thanks, again.

hey Ziah! can you believe you actually scared me into being less morose? had recurrent dreams of huge dutch ovens crashing into all my multiple personalities. but yeah, i promise. i'll relinquish the beard, the bottle and the bawling. she could be landing here in about two weeks. and we are yet to figure the rest of your questions. and probable plans involve salsa, tawa paneer and an inexpensive gym membership. and yeah, a coupla jobs to pay for all the above. but seriously, gotta figure a lotta things out. but yeah, sure as hell, shaking with the excitement.

Apple Bee said...

I'm super excited for you guys.

"sure as hell, shaking with the excitement"

I sure know what that feels like...happens quite rarely, but totally worth it!

Babushka said...

*sigh*
:) :)

i'm just smiling smiling smiling...

Pranay said...

Well....I don't know what you guys have. I've read many blogs and many writing styles r just so 'yours'. I somehow get the feeling that there is more to it than what it says and then there also is a feeling that I don't get so much more that could be in it....
All in all....ultra romantic post...Just as I like it...and more. :)

The Darkling Thrush said...

:)

i feel so happy for you, that i have butterflies in my tummy.

may there be sooooooo much to give, as always.

*hugs and kisses* to you both :)

aditya sirish said...

that.is.fuckin.extraordinary.